(Neptune–Saturn in Capricorn & the Survival Contract)

The last Neptune–Saturn conjunction was in Capricorn in the 1980's and carries a specific imprint.
Neptune dissolves. Saturn structures.
Capricorn governs authority, father and the system.

When structure dissolves under Neptune - the authority field destabilizes.

For many girls - this coincided with:

• A father leaving (physically or emotionally)
• A father becoming passive, absent or overwhelmed
• A mother suddenly carrying more weight than she could hold

When healthy masculine structure weakens - the system tilts And children always absorb this tilt.

Especially sensitive daughters.

How Mother Enmeshment Begins

Mother enmeshment rarely begins as dysfunction. It begins as bonding under pressure or a trauma to the family unit.

The daughter senses: Something isn’t stable. Something isn’t being held up.
And Mother is overwhelmed.

So she leans in to fill the gap . She becomes -  The good child.  The strong one The emotional r...

As Saturn Leaves Pisces and Enters 0° Aries

This is not a time for processing. It’s a time for accounting.

Saturn at 29° Pisces is the final audit of a 14-year cycle of sacrifice, fantasy, and emotional anesthesia.
Saturn in Aries does not carry illusions forward.

If something cannot be acted on cleanly, it does not survive the crossing.

1. The Karmic Audit

“What Did It Cost?” Inventory

Saturn is the accountant.
This is not an emotional exercise — it’s forensic.

The Practice

Get a journal. Draw two columns.

Left column: The Fantasy
Right column: The Receipt

In The Fantasy column

Write the promises that kept you enduring.

Examples:

• “He loves me — that should be enough.”

• “He’s under a lot of stress; I’ll bring this up later.”

• “He had a hard childhood; I’ll be what his mother wasn’t.”

• “Our connection transcends practical concerns.”

• “My art / voice / truth will be expressed someday when the time is right.”

Write them exactly as they lived in your...

We’re in the Dark Moon. The ego is dissolving.
Your nervous system is rearranging itself. This phase is not an ending —
it’s preparation for the beginning you can’t see yet.

(My progressed moon is in Scorpio for the next 2.5 yrs  so i am living in the inner emotional ecosystem of Scorpio.) 

Here are 10 things your body actually needs right now.

1. Let yourself get quiet in a way that feels illegal

Not productivity quiet.
Not “let me journal this” quiet.

I mean:

soul quiet.
body quiet.
animal quiet.
like-your-instincts-are-talking quiet.

Scorpio moons don’t speak in words — they speak in sensations.

If your energy drops?
GOOD.

If you feel withdrawn?
GOOD.

If you don’t want to talk to anyone?
EVEN BETTER.

You’re being pulled under so your psyche can rearrange itself without interference.

2. Stop trying to ‘figure it out’

Scorpio season is where the mind has ZERO authority.

Your mind is a toddler with crayons in a haunted house right now — useless.

Don’t chase clarity.
Don’...

The Priestess Remembers — Bound for 800 Years This is not just a transmission. It’s a soul retrieval for the Phoenix fractal— the women who were silenced, burned, betrayed… and told it was love. This message speaks to the false sacred unions…

The trauma bonds mistaken for Twin Flames… And the soul traps you’ve carried lifetime after lifetime. We remember the Cathars.

We remember the Priestesses. We remember you. “If it hurts like death, it isn’t Divine.” “If it silences your voice, it isn’t love.” 🕊️ This is the spellbreaker. 🕯️ This is your signal. 📿 Includes Human Design + Spirit Animal messages for each type.

Water Remembers What the Fire Cannot Burn

There are many times in our life when words aren't enough.
When the grief is too old.
When the ache is too sacred.
When the fire has taken more than we thought we could lose.

This week, under the Neptune–Sun–North Node conjunction,
and Pluto square Lilith,
the Feminine is walking through fire and water at once.

Some are collapsing in silence.
Some are remembering things they never spoke aloud.
Some are tired of being strong.

This offering is for you that feels alone.

A sound current to restore what has been lost.
A vibration to cool the burning.
A river for the woman who doesn't know where to go.

Narayan is the name of the Divine connected to Water
When it is spoken ..... even death steps back.

If you're tired… if you're numb… if you're holding more than your share—
this is for you.

You don’t have to heal or fix yourself.
Just let the waters remember you.

Music Nirijan Kaur

This message is not for the spiritual impersonator. It’s for the woman who’s done: — Apologizing for her power — Confusing performance with embodiment — Waiting for a man to rise while bleeding for his potential

In this Full Moon Eclipse Transmission, I guide you through:
⚔️ Karmic love vs. true union
🩸 The law of feminine conception (what you multiply in your womb)
🔥 False flame patterns vs. divine masculine presence
🧬 Messages for Generators, MGs, Projectors, Manifestors, Reflectors, and Twin Flames “

He’s not your counterpart. He’s your curriculum. And class is over.”

New Approach to My Work

Pluto in the 41st gate of Decrease and the Shadow of Fantasy until 2029. What Does it mean?

Pluto is shattering illusions that keep you trapped in fantasies that come from the Ego. Have you noticed that one desire is not coming to fruition?

It could be a partner? A career? Money? A place of living? Hoping a family member will heal and change? These are the fantasies (41) that you are being called to release. They are not aligned with the story of your Soul. 

Personally for me, I have had the fantasy of attracting more people from my fractal line to my youtube channel. Now I am letting this go and focusing my energy on you who is reading this and who shows up to my livestreams. 

I have decided I want to go deeper than broader. The time is up trying to cast my net wide in order to bring more people to this healing journey. This means I will no longer do zodiac sign readings. I am focusing on Human Design and of course astrology will be woven through but will...

Finally Energy is Moving

Good News is that Mars, our ability to act, has moved direct on Feb 23. It's been retrograde since Dec 6, 2024 which can make us feel unmotivated, a bit lost and tired. 

In fact, we are in a rare window of time where all the planets are direct until March 1, 2205. 

You will find that your energy will come back to move things forward in your life.

NEW Moon activates the Channel of Community (37- 40) on Feb 27, 2025

You will find that people will be preoccupied with seeking community and/or their family of origin.

This New Moon (37) is a journey from the shadow of Weakness to the Gift of Equality. Do you have the 37 or 40 activated in your chart?

The 37th is the gate of family.  The main complaint of the 37 is feeling unsupported. The 37 says, " If I start my own business, will I be supported?" If I leave this relationship, will I be supported?" This can lead to a feelings of low self-worth and an inability to trust in the Divine. It's the strong belief th...